maybe I go in for an ADD assessment. Due to this and many other reasons (shit short term memory, constant loss of focus) I've been suspicious for a while, but part of me feels like I'm just trying to place blame on something external to me
Ironically, I'm afraid of losing the things I most care about if I don't get my fears under control
I honestly don't know how to fix myself, I'm constantly hurting those most important to me. They don't deserve that but it keeps happening. I just feel lost