I was never in any crowd, hell: I didn't even belong in my family. I always heard 'She's so different' & 'She's so unusual' etc, never understood why.
I tried to fit in and never succeeded.
I lost myself in the process of adjusting to how I thought I should be to be accepted. I am currently trying to go back to who I was so long ago to find out what I really like, what makes me 'me'.
Sensitivity, shyness, and a sense of guilt can really mess you up.
@pascaline @m0xee @rgulick @randahl
Well, if your life has been anything like mine, all the people you didn't vibe with have turned out to be Nazis. ๐ฉ Horrifying, but at the same time validating: you had very good reason not to feel comfortable with them.
It is tough to be a person who cares in the midst of a society where those shockingly cruel forces were always there and are now rearing their heads in public.
But you are very right to reclaim who you are! It's liberating, isn't it?
@pascaline @m0xee @rgulick @randahl
I mean, I grew up in the country in the land of what's now the MAGA base and then was educated in what is now 1%er Naziville. I am sorry you went through that, I know the pain it caused and how you have to unlearn all the lessons you learned trying to get along with awful people when you were young. There is hope on the other side, though.
I don't think many in the family agree with the current situation, worldwide, but I am certain of a few who do. Still, I try to focus on meself and how I feel; there is a lot going on and the Word Stuff and myself, and the cats, are more than enough for me at the moment ๐
It is liberating but also confronting. And it's difficult to find myself even though I am alone now, but much easier than when I was with my ex. I think this year will be crucial for me, if I am granted that time.
@m0xee @rgulick @randahl
My friends and I weren't the in crowd in high school, we were nerds and artistes. We were considered weird for a mix of good and terrible reasons: we were going to be considered weird whatever we did, just because we were a diverse bunch by every measure. That's the terrible reason. So we decided, "Hey, if we're gonna be weird anyway, we might as well have fun!" And we had a great time being weird.
Some people figure it out in high school. And some are Elon.