This space of constant sucking up has exhausted me. I cannot be fake. I never have been. And I’ve suffered. And the only lesson I have been taught through all this is: If you can’t suck up, you’re a loser. And those who do, will thrive.

I better come to terms with failure. At this rate - I’ll probably be a poorer person monetarily, but at least, there will be some happiness. Take it in my stride.